Our Story

On January 8th, 2021 after a long pregnancy battle of preterm labor, bedrest, and physical pain, Oliver James McLeod-Cobb, my beloved son, left this earth at 33 weeks gestation and the same weight his Dad was born at. From that moment my life was turned upside down. I was met with a medical system completely incapable of supporting me and charting a way forward from perinatal loss. But in the early days when I wasn’t sure I would survive this, I remember thinking why not me.

I spent the next 2 years investigating all the confounding factors for Oliver’s stillbirth by working with countless maternal fetal medicine physicians, therapists, pathologists, reproductive endocrinologists, neonatologists and endometriosis surgeons. Trauma therapy of many types, countless therapists, and finding a loss mom tribe I identified with helped me gain my bearings and envision a fulfilling life after loss. In May of 2023 and with the support of a team of dedicated physicians at the Mount Sinai Rainbow Clinic, I gave birth to my daughter Elizabeth at 36 weeks. We both did incredibly well but the grief remains. Grief is my lifetime commitment to loving Oliver aka Ollie. With time I have learned that the fear of grief is worse than the grief itself and this has allowed me to surrender to the pain and let it change me.

At the darkest points in my journey I felt stuck and couldn’t imagine ever smiling again. It seemed wrong to ever be happy. But my story didn’t end there. It continued in beautiful ways I couldn’t understand before and I became a person I loved more than the prior version. Ollie’s death changed me and I vowed to share my experience and what I have learned with other loss moms like me. Ollie, is the embodiment of Oliver and I’s commitment to do this. The perinatal loss experience is sacred and transformational and I want you to know that your story doesn’t end here. Ollie is the platform I wish was there when I lost Ollie and we are honored to partner alongside you as you envision your life after loss.